I was asked a question on some app called Kiwi. The app is something from twitter where you can randomly ask and answer random questions. Well the question was “What do you see when you look in the mirror?”, and at first I was going to make a smartass remark as an answer, but I decided to think about it for a little bit.

What I see when I look in the mirror is not an easy answer for me. 1) I don’t look in the mirror for more than a minute a day, 2) I rarely look myself in the eyes. I understand the question is more than that. It’s actually a good question. I remembered at some point a few years ago, as an exercise a therapist asked me to write down a list of positive qualities about myself. I actually ran to everyone I knew to tell me something nice about myself, and that is how I came up with my list.

I didn’t even know how low my self esteem was that I couldn’t come up with my own list! It seemed like a simple exercise, a list with no minimum of qualities, just something to put on the paper. I realized I needed to understand myself better, trust myself, get to know who I am, and learn to love who I am good or bad.